Last night I rewatched the WONDERFUL documentary directed by Lonny Price ‘Best Worst Thing That Ever Could Have Happened.’ The documentary explores the initial failed broadway run of the Sondheim show ‘Merrily We Roll Along’ which ran for only 16 performances. While that is the ‘headline’ subject of the piece something I had not considered is how much the stories of the young actors (that have since grown) affected me.
I haven’t posted in a while for a variety of reasons and excuses – I was ill, I wasn’t in the right frame of mind (I literally have a document on the computer called ‘Bad Frame Of Mind’… it certainly was not usable.) This film was an abrupt reminder that everyone is on their own path and the journey, not the destination is what its all about. It also reminded me how much of a dreamer I was.
I don’t talk about it much but it has been around a year since I decided to put my childhood dream to bed (for now). I grew up wanting to perform and be a singer – this eventually developed into wanting to be in Musical Theatre (something I’d loved from a very young age). But around a year ago I decided that it wasn’t for me – that life style, the insecurity, the constant rejection… I just couldn’t handle it. I have come to accept that, and while maybe the wound is still a bit sore, I am elated with my decision.
My company Jake Waby Productions is now (officially) over a year old and going from strength to strength – something that was only really a side hustle has developed into my main earner and something I take great pride in. Not only am I producing for more clients and new, different events but I am also producing (all be it slowly) my own films and content.
I think the reason the film resonated with me so much is because it very much mirrors what the musical ‘Merrily’ says. The hopeful, idealistic dreams we have when we are younger often aren’t necessarily where our life’s lead us and as we grow and live we want different things out of life. Now, that is true in a lot of cases but don’t get me wrong, if you REALLY want it – you can have anything, I still wholeheartedly believe that, but with age comes a different perspective.
What is the best worst thing that has happened to you? Think about it and think about how that has changed you and how you have become the person you are today because of that. Now think about the hopeful, idealistic version of you and learn a few things from that person. There are always things we lose along the way that can help us now. Never stop being the dreamer, never stop believing you can and never let your situation or limitations stop you from getting where you want to be.