The Answers I Thought I’d Find…

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The View from Hoboken

I have just under two months left in this brilliant city and I only now realise that all the answers that I thought I’d find while I was here have eluded me. In fact more questions have been added to the list of never ending soul searching yet to do. This is how I see it, with every new month a new chapter is added to the ever expanding book of life. (Okay okay Jake, calm down with the metaphors) With that chapter comes a list of questions, usually decisions you need to make or things you need to figure out. What is my next step? What can I do to be healthier? Should I have pizza for dinner tonight? I am always very insistent on answering these questions as soon as I can so once the questions are answered I can start one of my OCD lists in my notebook and then start checking things off slowly, which in turn adds more questions that I will eventually need to answer.

Oh my. That is a horrific circle, isn’t it? From today I break this circle. I don’t know if I believe in fate but I do believe that things work out for the better, if you are patient and hard working enough. This incessant need to control my own life is too much and is now somehow controlling me. When in fact all I need to do is focus on the the things that matter and do what makes me happy. And yes I will continue to ask myself questions but they don’t need an answer right now, they may not be answered for years to come.

So when I walk down the street in a few hours on my way to a long day of learning, I will remember to look around and smell the roses, so to speak. I will smile and know who I am. I will remember that all that needs answering will be answered, whenever the time is right. And that is what I will do everyday from now on.

Reading this I know that you wont be on the same journey as me and things that I am going through may not even be a thought in your mind but I like to think that the idea of knowing things will eventually happen for you, transcends the boundaries of this specific situation. Hear me out, I want you to think of whatever questions you are asking yourself in your life right now. Then I want you to not worry about them, know that a time will come when that question will just be 2+2=4 on a piece of paper. Things have their own ways of answering themselves. So next time you see the sky, think of this, take a breath and keep going, keep living and make the impossible, possible.

See you back here this weekend for my next Vlog!

Love always

Jake x

Mum Visited NYC!
Mum Visited NYC!

4 Comments Add yours

  1. soph says:

    I feel exactly the same babe.. and I write OCD lists too.. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.. just a human on a journey of self – improvement and success.. loveee soph xx

  2. Debbie says:

    We need to look around us and appreciate each day, each moment as it is and not live in the past and not too much in the future! Lists are great though!!! xxxxx

  3. Anne-Marie Savastano says:

    So young and yet so wise!
    I definitely believe that everything is exactly as it should be at any given time. In the end it works out and we all follow the path of our journey and learn as we go along.
    Keep enjoying and smiling Jake!
    Remember a moment is just that, then it’s gone so learning to enjoy all that is given to us is a privilege!
    Lots of love

  4. Sue Cobb says:

    Well said Jake….loved that bit of reading. You are going inside yourself to a depth Ive not encountered in anyone yet. I did have a little giggle to be honest because you are just always so honest yourself. Positive thinking always will go a long way towards your goals and the way you think love. Positivity brings an aura about you that brings all good positive things in your life. Good luck darling….

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