So as my first day at Lee Strasberg has come and gone, all the first day jitters are no longer and now its time to get where I wanna be. My acting journey at Strasberg has just begun and I am excited! I wanna explore what I can do, push my boundaries and achieve what I came to achieve.
I am in a very triumphant and ambitious mood tonight so there is definitely no room for doubts. Doubts shouldn’t exist. If you think about it, what are doubts? I will tell you honestly and fundamentally what doubt is… Its your head f***ing with you. That is all! To be even more honest Its time that I got a grip and finally start listening to everything I tell myself. I am very good at inspiring myself to be the person I want to be but the ‘evil Jake’ on my shoulder tells me otherwise. Just FYI, Evil Jake has now dissolved, I think this is due to my SALTED Caramel Hot Chocolate. I mean, have you ever tasted heaven in a cup? I have!
On a more serious note, the road ahead is something I think about a lot, I assume other people do too. It’s something that can cause copious amount of worry and make you feel like you are drowning in a sea of choices while the waves keep crashing over your head. Just as you get a second to breath, it happens again. Then before you know it you taste nothing but salt water, you shudder and squish up your face, causing eventual wrinkles, until you can once again breath and ‘taste’ normally. After that, once you are finally out of the water, you’ve got to get past the sand with wet feet, which we all know is just unpleasant and if you think otherwise then please feel free to roll around in the sand, but don’t come to my house expecting a hug. This is what I think i’m going through at the moment. (not the sandy hugy part, that is my definition of hell) I think i’ve found my way out of the fear of the ‘road’ and I am slowly but surely learning to embrace it.
I am now totally aware of the fact that the road may not be paved all the way to the final destination or that it may have many bends, turns or junctions that I will have to choose to go down. But I have faith, the solid ‘confidence’ kind of faith, that I will make the best decisions I can and just keep traveling down my road remembering every now and again to fill up the metaphorical car with petrol.
How do you feel about your ‘Road Ahead’? Whoever you are that may have stumbled across this post, what is it like? Is it clear blue skies all the way to California? Or is it a rainy day in London rush hour? Think about it, but know that the road is never jammed for long and equally the sunny skies will turn to night and you will only have the stars and the moon to guide you. I think what I’m saying is, trust that you have a destination, a reason to be on the road. And if you are not a trusting person figure it out! You are smart enough, look at a map, call me and ask for directions (Uh oh!) or just see where it takes you.
I think that is all I have to say about this, its something I wanted to get off my chest for a while. I didn’t expect to be quite as cooky in my post about this but it makes me smile so I am happy with how it turned out. I hope you like my blog and feel free to subscribe by entering your email address above. Writing is making me really happy and I hope that comes across.
Keep on going,
Love Jake xx